I love words, especially when three of them are linked together to express a deep feeling. “So Will I” is part of a title for a song, “So Will I (100 Billion X),” by Hillsong United. Yesterday I fell in love with it as I was searching for a song to couple with a blog I thought I was going to write! Instead, the Holy Spirit had other designs and I understood to use this song as a prayer within this posting complete with images.
Divine inspiration took me on a journey and it began when I entered through an image of a door, actually “door #23” that I viewed on Pinterest. The wood door reminded me of something that St. Joseph might have constructed so I was very drawn to it. More so when I noted the number “23” seen faintly above the door lintel. I immediately thought of Psalm 23 – The Good Shepherd and that led me into a prayer journey beginning with an old book that I’ve had for many years.
I immediately picked up “The Shepherd of My Soul – Meditations for All” written by Wildred LeSage, S.J. off my book shelf and took it with me to Notre Dame Church for prayer before the Monstrance.
The Good Shepherd
Jesus tells us He is the Good Shepherd in Holy Scripture (John 10:1-19). He gives us a road map and tells us, “I am the way, the truth and the life.” As my eyes rested on the pages of this gem that I had been led to, words seemed to jump off the page. “Christ is my way. He is my only way. Human ways fail but not the Divine way.”
I believe that Christ is the way. As I read the book I thought, “I place my Trust in Him and I will let Him do what He wishes with me on this day of prayer.” After I surrendered to Jesus, I “feel” him tell me with words of love spoken to my heart, “I have come that you may have life.” His meaning is clear. He has come to fill my soul with His Divine Life! How can I begin to thank Him for such a gift?
As I read the words written by this author, “How can I begin to thank Him for such a gift?” my thoughts went back to yet another image that I had seen of being “knit in the womb” by the Creator. When I first saw this picture on Instagram all I could think of was ,”my God, how precious! “How real!”
Psalm 139 clearly tells me the following:
It was you who created my inmost self, and put me together in my mother’s womb; for all these mysteries I thank you: for the wonder of myself, for the wonder of your works.
You know me through and through, from having watched my bones take shape when I was being formed in secret, knitted together in the limbo of the womb.
He Loves Me
As I read further the golden pages of the meditation the Lord had provided for me, Wilfred LeSage S.J. writes the following:
“Very frequently the life of a person depends on a blood transfusion. What joy for a generous blood donor to realize that he has saved a life! But our Good Shepherd came to save more than mere human life. He came to save the life of immortal souls, even to the sharing of His Divine Life with them.”
As I sat before the Monstrance I began to make an Act of Faith, Hope and Love. The author states, “how much more deeply do I realize that nothing else in the world matters except to live with God in my heart. . . my Good Shepherd.”
And then the clincher comes, the number of the door that began the whole journey of this particular day pops into my head.
Wilfred LeSage, S.J. quotes the following of the joyful message to his soul and mine upon the pages of this book from Holy Scripture taken from Jeremiah 31:3).
“My child, I have loved thee with an everlasting love.”
Note the number pictured on the door above! Yes, it is the number 31. This image I had actually seen first in my morning prayer and it had spoken clearly to my mind in regard to the importance of the number “31”. It is the number above my own front door of my own house. I was very much drawn to it. I could have stayed with this particular image but I believe I needed the other piece of the puzzle or rather “door #23” to be coupled together for the complete journey of my heart in understanding what Jesus was communicating to me.
The Good Shepherd, Psalm 23 and Jeremiah 31:3 – “My child, I have loved thee with an everlasting love,” were the hinges of my prayer and grace seemed to be abounding. . .
Jesus clearly is a God of Detail and yet He wasn’t finished with me on this particular day of inspiration.
How Can I Begin to Thank Him for Such a Gift?
How was I going to thank Him for the ways He brought me into prayer this particular day? I would find out 24 hours later when I listened to song sung by Hillsong United “So Will I.” It is a song of beautiful praise and worship to the Good Shepherd who loves us tremendously.
God of creation
There at the start, before the beginning of time
With no point of reference
You spoke to the dark and fleshed out the wonder of light.
And as You speak
A hundred billion galaxies are born.
In the vapour of Your breath the planets form.
If the stars were made to worship, So Will I!
I can see Your heart in everything You’ve made.
Every burning star, a signal fire of grace.
If creation sings Your praises, So Will I!
God of Your promise
You don’t speak in vain, no syllable empty or void
For once You have spoken
All nature and science, follow the sound of Your voice.
And as You speak
A hundred billion creatures catch Your breath
Evolving in pursuit of what You said
If it all reveals Your nature, So Will I!
I can see Your heart in Everything You say.
Every painted sky, a canvas of Your grace
If creation still obeys You, So Will I
So Will I, So Will I
If the stars were made to worship, So Will I!
If the mountains bow in reverence, So Will I!
If the oceans roar Your greatness, So Will I!
For if everything exists to lift You high, So Will I!
And if the wind goes where You send it, So Will I!
If the rocks cry out in silence, So Will I!
If the sum of all our praises still falls shy
Then we’ll sing again a hundred billion times!
God of salvation. . .
You chased down my heart through all of my failure and pride.
On a hill You created
The light of the world abandoned in darkness to die.
And as You speak
A hundred billion failures disappear
Where You lost Your life so I could find it here.
If You left the grave behind You, So Will I!
I can see Your heart in everything You’ve done
Every part designed in a work of art called love.
If You gladly chose surrender, So Will I!
I can see Your heart, eight billion different ways.
Every precious one, a child You died to save
If You gave Your life to love them, So Will I!
Like You would again a hundred billion times
But what measure could amount to Your desire?
You’re the One who never leaves the one behind.
So He comes. The Good Shepherd comes to your door today. You may not have a number on that door, it does not matter. He comes anyway!
He comes with His staff to show you the Way, the Truth and the Life. He comes to shower you with His love, His forgiveness, His beauty.
He comes in His Word of Holy Scripture, in His Sacraments of the Most Holy Eucharist-His Body and His Blood.
He comes in the Presence of the Monstrance where we can go to adore and treasure His love for us and give it back to Him tenfold or, as the song says, “So Will I – (100 Billion X).
One Last Image
I leave you with this final image. Actually this was the one I was going to base this blog around. I had entitled the image “Awe,” (more like “Shock and Awe”on the faces of these precious little ones held by their parents).
I think they got it by the looks on their faces. They see the True Presence clearly!
They are the little ones that were “knit” in the wombs of this mother and who are now brought before the one with the “knitting needles,” who created them in Love. Perfect Love!
Shock, awe, wonder, love, amazement, gratefulness, tenderness, holiness, tranquility, peacefulness. . . the list is endless when you worship Him and give Him thanks for the great gift of your life.
Come Let Us Worship This Great God!
The God Who Knocks at Your Door Today!
©2020 Anita Guariglia
Youtube: “So Will I (100 Billion X) – Hillsong United
(Hope Community Church credited for video)
Painted Skies/Anita Guariglia
All other images – Instagram & Pinterest
Holy Scripture – Jerusalem Bible
Quotes from book, “The Shepherd of My Soul” Wilfred LeSage, S.J.